It was a Sunday afternoon! I was feeling like I lacked a serious understanding of my purpose. I was becoming depressed. I just wanted time alone. I desperately wanted to hear from God. I desperately wanted to understand what to do next with my life. I was getting tired of the same thing week in and week out. Something had to change. I had to change. I had to do something different.
That afternoon, I went to Starbucks. I took my journal. I took my iPad which had my Logos Bible Study Software in it. I also took my headphones and my hoodie. I sat in the cool air of that coffee shop and sipped my mocha latte as I spent time reading, writing and praying.
As I read and tried to seek God on the whole matter of purpose and vocation, He hit me with something. At the same time, I received a text from a family member explaining the situation to her. She told me “I was already doing it (what I was called to do, pre-ordained in fact to do). I started drawing this chart. Sure enough, between what I was reading in scripture, the text message and the chart it all added up.
The chart that I was inspired to draw is a lay out of everything that I was interested in from the time of my birth to childhood to the present. Sprouting out of this period of time is my involvement with ministry, weather and cartoons. At the very top of the chart, everything started making sense. Each experience had a reason and is being used to fulfill a purpose. Even now, the responsibilities before me at church, at work and at school, all are in my lap for a reason. The entire experience I’m having now is supposed to be happening!
I had to admit the truth and face facts. It was the hardest thing to do. I breathed in…then exhaled. I just decided to admit it to myself. “I lost my way!”
I began to realize that I spent more time chasing and less time seeking God. I spent more time chasing after stuff I hoped that would bring me to a place of greatness and bright and shiny opportunities that I failed to see that my purpose now is here to prepare me for a greater plan later.
So, now what, you may ask!?!
Matthew 25:21 says “His lord said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant; you were faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your lord.’”
My lesson that Sunday afternoon was this….
1. “Be Faithful” with what I have now and where I am now in life.
2. Take care of what’s in front of me NOW. Stop worrying about LATER.
3. Fix my eyes on Jesus. If it’s on the temporary, what I come up with or anything otherwise, then there’s reason to be depressed.
- The Purposeless Life (bornundercalicoskies.wordpress.com)
- “Purpose With Power” (pjsprayerline.blogspot.com)
- Are you a dog? (chosendiadem.wordpress.com)