The movie, “ParaNorman,” really made me think about an experience I had as a kid. Check this out!
What makes you different!? What makes you stand out above the rest. This is not a question of “what makes you better than someone else,” as much as this is a question of “what makes you unique…genuine…just different.” For me, one of the many attributes I have is talking to myself.
Growing up, when I walked to and from the school bus stop, I would walk alone. I hardly ever walked with other kids. Frankly, it was because I had the hardest time relating to peers my age. I tried to connect with others my age, but it was quite literally like talking to a brick wall.
They cared about things that I thought didn’t matter.
Even in my adulthood I have the same struggle. This week has been a flash back of my childhood, reminding me of the days I would walk to and from the bus stop, thinking out loud to myself. Picture an 11 year old talking to himself when he in fact is just talking through the days issues and coping with the events of the day. Talking to myself in effect became a coping mechanism. But it also served as a way to dig deeper into my creative side as well. Even spiritually, when it comes to Bible study and sermon prep, it helps me to talk out loud and even address God out loud in an empty room or even in public.
But, one day, I did experience a moment of pure embarrassment. I was about 14 or so when I was talking to myself in my room, in front of a mirror, lost in a state of my own imagination. My Mom walks in as I’m in mid-sentence, and suspects that I’m going nuts because I’m talking to myself. My Dad calms her down and convinces her that I’m not crazy nor am I loosing my mind, but, that its what certain guys like me do.
For me, talking to myself, whether its in my head or out loud, has helped me in writing stories and blogging. It has also helped me in my personal life as well.